DAY 30 A CHALLENGING FE DAYS BUT THINK IM GETTIN BACK ON TRACK...........


OK so i have struggled since Thursday don't know what has happened really just felt abit fed up really i guess this has been my time to fall back its been a very strange feeling it just gets so hard sometimes i guess everyone goes through it not really exercised much since then either all together only done 20 mins on my exercise bike i know isn't going to help me but i feel my eating hasn't dipped to much just haven't been strict on my calorie eating at meal times like i normally am haven't pigged out though i feel. back to moky tomorrow for another 2 hour workout just what i need after the way i have felt the past few days.


MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES TO HELP ME GET BACK ON TRACK 

Always do what your afraid to do

i feel that this is something i am battling with everyday i am afraid of anything to do with my weight loss just feel failure constantly in my head this is definitely a quote i need to remember and need to learn that i can do this being afraid is nothing to be scared of just something to work on overcoming.

If you do not hope you will not find what is beyond your hopes.

i love this quote as i have alot of hopes and dreams for my future during and after this weight loss which is what i need to remember also to keep me on track i need to keep this in my head and know that my hopes are the way forward to a slimmer brighter healthier future.

AND FINALLY MY FAVOURITE QUOTE OF ALL

WE ARE WHAT WE REPEATEDLY DO. EXCELLENCE, THEREFORE, IS NOT AN ACT BUT HABIT

this quote has learned me that excellence is part of my life or at least will be when i reach my goals and yes its all about habits getting rid of all my bad habits and creating perfection in my new ones this i know isn't going to be easy but i do believe it is manageable focusing my mind and changing everything i every new about my lifestyle is the only way forward for me and my gorgeous girl who deserves the best in life and i hope that changing my habits will help her make the right choices where her habits are concerned im very thankful to have her in my life and she is my excellence and perfection she is enough to make me realise my wrong doings and bad habits and correct them.

these quotes may not sound much to others but to me its how you interpret them i definitely feel that they are powerful words to me and guidance to help me along in my journey.

DAY 24 LETS MOKY!!!!!!!

Absolutely loving moky at the min it is fantastic the instructors are fantastic and everyone are so friendly never thought i would say i look forward to exercise but i do even after 2 hours of hard work i am still motivated and thinking aww i now have to wait another week till my next moky session gutted still cant believe how nice and friendly everyone are there don't have a bad word to say really just hope i have done enough to lose another 2lb this week and make my first stone loss while being on this sponsored slim.

                              wow this looks alot but all i need to do is lose double this and im happy 

                                                    this is what one pound of fat looks like.

to everyone in the sponsored slim that are doing fantastic on there weight loss but don't realise it a 5lb loss is a hell of alot when you think it weighs exactly the same as a brick i know these pics aint nice to look at but definitely seem to be keeping me on track and also carols words of wisdom thank you :) 

DAY 20 TESTING TIME CAN I GO OUT AND KEEP MY DIET IN CONTROL...........


Well got invited out for a road to Whitley bay with some of the girls off the village was a bit worried bout my diet didn't want to waste all my hard work so i decided i would drink but try and stay sensible. when we set off everyone was drinking on the coach i chose not to wanted to enjoy my drink while i was out i felt abit boring really but needed to stay focused was a bit weird (although i did have a couple of shots of sambucca) i was stone cold sober and everyone else were half cut if not bit more by the time we arrived oh how i wished that was me lol. I do think i managed pretty well though after having a few drinks and dancing the night away i was abit tipsy probs helps that i never really drink any more don't take much to get me drunk lol what a fantastic night though actually got chat to and meet more people from my area only took me a year have to say though all the girls were great was a really good laugh. when everyone was ready for home time they went to the take away all ordered kebabs and chips or burgers i ordered a diet coke haha i thought i did quite well really just nicked a couple of chips and pieces of chicken off my sister i was fine then all ready for a long drive back home all worth it think i slept most of the way back.


DAY 21 WEEKLY WEIGH IN DAY...........


when i finally crawled out of bed gone dinner haha i was undecided whether i should weigh myself again or not was scared after the night before but i decided to bite the bullet and get on um if i see any damage it will give me the push to correct it. i was pleasantly surprised i had lost another lb since my midweek weigh in that's another 2lb off this week not the 4lb i wanted but hey after having a night out i am so so pleased 12lb altogether in 3 weeks yay go me. i just need to concentrate this week now to ensure i get the other 2lb off and reach my first stone on the sponsored slim i can do this i know i can 


DAY 22 MONDAY TIME TO SET GOALS FOR THE WEEK A HEAD.............

• Plenty of exercise - last week i lacked abit although i did 3 moky sessions i didn't really do as much as i should of at home this week i will change this 
• No night out - i never normally go out anyway so thought i would to get to know the girls near me nothing planned this week though.
• Watch what i eat- make sure i count all my calories using my fitness pal on computer and phone
• Try and get more sponsors- my total now is £230 a fantastic amount of money but want to raise as much as possible for an amazing cause. 
• Most importantly STAY FOCUSED!!!!!!!

DAY 16 ALL WAS GOING SO WELL........


Today i got up had my breakfast bar 83 calories then dinner 2 slices of malt loaf 203 calories then i had for my tea a healthy tuna and rice salad not sure on calories but had alot more salad then anything else so wasn't to bad. took fuscia to the park and i managed to walk there no problem no pains in my back and hips which means all this exercise must be paying off was so pleased with myself.


Then i received a phone call off my mum she said she had treated me for tea and she was in her way to drop it off to my surprise it was a doner kebab on pitta i thought since i had done so well i could afford a treat 16 days and i had cut all the rubbish out to break it as i started to eat it i was enjoying it then the guilt started to kick in all my hard work and i was eating a kebab what was i thinking i ate about half of it then gave the rest to my liam then pushed myself into a 50 mins workout hopefully i didn't damage the diet to much.


hope you don't think im being ungrateful mum as it was a lovely surprise just guilt over took my mind that's got to be a good sign hasn't it i now know i aint interested in all that i really don't want it any more i need to help myself one stupid moment of weakness that has shown me i don't need that sort of food no more. i need to change for the better and that's what im going to do.


DAY 17 BACK IN CONTROL AND STILL LOVING MOKYFIT..............


OK so i have had another easy day today am back on track after my blip yesterday i now know that i don't want take away its not for me at the minute anyway. so today i didn't really eat that much don't know if that was out of guilt of yesterday or just didn't feel hungry think i should of had bit more then what i have done but its to late to eat now lol its supposed to be bad to eat after 8 i have heard. 


Been to moky and never thought i could manage 2 hours but i did it 2 whole hours its unbelievable to think before this sponsored slim i was so unhealthy struggled to walk with my bad back and hips and yes i know that's down to my size but i was just stuck in a rut. i think i believe this sponsored slim has pulled me out of it and actually given me so much motivation and belief in me as a have so many sponsors that must believe in me to sponsor me.any way back to moky so i was only expecting 1 hour thats a good enough workout and then mel asked me if i was up for doing 2 hours. i just thought im never going to manage this but i will give it a go theres only one way am going to lose this weight and thats to push myself. after the first hours i was just red hot ant sweaty didn't feel to bad then as i got half way through the second workout my legs were starting to give up i think haha they just didnt want to function but i pushed myself and i finished them both and even though i was shattered after the workout i was on such a high for actually finishing it whoop whoop go me and mel. 


DAY 18 OUCH MY BACK AND FEET BUT ALL WORTH IT :) .............


Well woke up this morning and have a sore back and poorly toes lol think i took it out of um with all that moky but i dont care as it all payed off when i weighed myself to realise since christmas i have lost 1st 2lbs an since the sponsored slim i have lost 11lb going to keep working hard and fingers crossed by sundays weigh in i can make that 11lbs into 1stone then i will be half way through my goal for this sponsored slim.

DAY 15 MOKY TIME........


OK so today i have had an easy day again have so much motivation for this slim-a-thon and really dont know where its all come from think the sponsored group all help though with there words of wisdom they are so encouraging and all i can say is a huge thank you because i am normally struggling by now.


Been to moky tonight and i really do absolutely love it although i have got aches and pains here there and everywhere. That 1 hour work out uses so much energy its unbelievable (just hoping it all shows on the scales lol) when i first thought about moky i really was unsure scared what people would think and also how people would react. thank you again to the slimmer group they all said how amazing it is and and give me that push to go and wow was that the right decision i have had no funny looks everyone seems friendly enough the music and dance routines are fantastic and all i can say is BRING ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!

DAY 14 WEIGH IN DAY......


so i weighed myself this morning and i have lost another 2lb thats 9lb all together in 2 weeks would of liked abit  more really but i cant complain really still happy any loss is a good one in the right direction :).

was so pleased last night after publishing my first blog i got a very generous donation of £30 to the sponsor page was very shocked couldn't believe it but it just makes me more and more determined to do it for all my sponsors and the charity my sponsor total is now £195 wow i never thought i could raise that much still looking for mare sponsors though anything you could give would be great doesn't have to be alot and you can do it through the link below 


http://www.justgiving.com/In-memory-of-Alfie-Joe

also i just wanted to mention the charity evening im helping to plan with some amazing people this is going to be taking place on the 5th may it will be a celebration of all everyone's hard work through the weight loss, a chance to raise alot more money for sands and also most importantly a 1st birthday celebration for alfie-joe although he isn't here he is deep in everyone's hearts and as i have said before i don't know his mum very well only really through joining the slim and facebook but her story has touched me and many others and we all want to make alfie-joes birthday celebrations as special as we can for her also if anyone reading this have anything they would very kindly like to donate towards a charity auction or raffle we all would be very grateful 



today has been quite a good day definitely feel like am losing the urge to want to eat everything in sight and i am making myself have my 3 meals a day at the right time (think that was part my problem i ate whenever my tummy told me to not no more) i also find drinking alot more water suppresses my hunger maybe in the past it was confusion between wanting food and wanting a drink. i have done 45 mins on my zumba today maybe do another workout on it after dancing on ice lol if i get chance however i am happy with the 45 mins done alot more then what i was used to. im hoping that things stay this easy although i am sure they wont lol only time will tell.

DAY 13 OF SPONSORED SLIM....


OK so just a bit of insight into the sponsored slim it is taking place between the 29th January and ongoing to 29th April im doing the sponsored slim for a a fantastic charity which not only touches my heart but also many others to it is Sands, the stillbirth and neonatal death charity it is in memory of a lil boy that was born sleeping on the 29th April last year and although i don't know his mum i do believe she is a very brave and courageous women to go through something like that and get involved raising money for the charity. 


not only am i doing the sponsored slim to raise money but also for myself i think it is the push i need and so far in the 13 days so far i have lost 7lb however i shall weigh myself again tomorrow and see how the past week has paid off (fingers crossed its at least 2lb) so i have been doing zumba on my kinect any bit of free time i get i love it i did 40 mins this morning and 45 mins this evening (got be a good sign don't feel like am guna die just tired lol) also have done one moky class and it was amazing i luved it would recommend all to look into it i will definitely be continuing doing that you really do feel like you have done something after it.


i have also changed my eating habits (well i didn't have much choice really) i am now on a strict 1200 calories a day where i track everything i eat though my fitness pal on my phone and also on the computer i find i can still have the odd treat as long as its counted in my calories and i don't go over and it seems to be working for me so far in the past i have tried weight watchers and yes that was fantastic lost 2 and a half stone that was before my precious lil lady came along though and shes 2 and a half now i have also tried lipotrim and wow that was challenging i managed 4 weeks of no food just shakes and water and yes that worked as well i lost 2 stone with that however when i stopped that i put back on the 2 stone and more 


in myself i am so so ashamed of how i have let myself go its not fair to my fuscia although she doesn't miss out on much she does miss out on an active mum and that is now what i am going to change these 3 months are only the start for me i just need to stay focused and keep committed and at the moment i sure am committed have got £165 worth of sponsors and still looking for more this is also a big push knowing that people have faith in me something i have only just found in myself i know people will judge me for my size but just know that now i am making a stand and willing to change this along with 35+ people also taking part in this sponsored slim i think each and everyone of them are amazing for doing what they are doing and want to let them know they are an inspiration to me and they keep me strong on my moments of weakness.


if you have taken your time to read this please know that all these words are true and that me and all the other guys are still looking for sponsors so please no matter how big or small please sponsor us by using the link below thank you 


http://www.justgiving.com/In-memory-of-Alfie-Joe